From Rock Bottom to Rise Up: Reclaiming My Body and My Voice

10 years ago, I was the “fit girl.” The one with abs, macros dialed in, and workouts that looked like poetry in motion. But life has its own choreography—and mine led me into a storm I didn’t see coming.

Stress hit. Depression and Bipolar followed. And suddenly, the very body I had built with discipline and pride felt foreign. I gained weight. Not just physically—but emotionally, mentally. My self-worth began shrinking long before my clothes stopped fitting.

This part is hard to say out loud: I felt shame. I felt stuck. And I felt like a fraud in the very space I once thrived in.

But then something shifted.

I realized this weight wasn’t just about body fat—it was about the grief, the burnout, the heavy expectations. The pressure to be “on brand” when inside, I was breaking. So, I stopped hiding. I confronted the pain, gave it a name, and decided to do what I tell my clients every day: show up, even messy.

Now, I’m rebuilding. Not to reclaim my old body—but to reclaim my power.

🚧 The Comeback Is Still in Progress—And That’s the Point

I’m not “back in shape.” Not yet. And honestly, chasing some polished finish line isn’t the mission anymore.

I’m sweating, stumbling, and recalibrating—daily. There are moments where the mirror feels like a battlefield, and others where I catch a glimpse of resilience in my own reflection. This body is still a work-in-progress, but now I see that progress isn't about perfection. It's about pursuit.

I’m showing up to workouts with intention, even when motivation hides. I’m redesigning my nutrition with flexibility instead of punishment. I’m rebuilding strength—not just physically, but emotionally. And I’m leading others from the middle, not from the mountaintop.

Because helping people doesn’t require a six-pack—it requires honesty.

If you're in the thick of it, too—you're not late. You're not broken. You’re becoming.

💪 Helping Others Means Telling the Whole Truth

These days, I’m showing up—not with a six-pack or a flawless meal log—but with honesty, creativity, and heart.

Because “motivational” doesn’t mean curated perfection. It means being real about how hard it is—and doing it anyway.

So, if you’ve gained weight, lost momentum, or feel like you’re buried under expectations—you’re not alone. You’re not broken. And you don’t need to “get back” to anything. You need to rise into something new.

That's what I do now: ⚡ Build programs that speak to the soul ⚡ Create nutrition plans that honor the human experience ⚡ Use storytelling to remind my clients they’re worthy at every stage

Fitness isn’t just my job—it’s my language. And now I speak it from a place of truth.

✨ Final Thought: The Weight Was Never Just on My Body

The heaviness I carried was emotional, spiritual, psychological. And shedding it wasn’t just about sweating it off—it was about naming it, facing it, and rewriting my story.

If you’re on that path, or thinking about starting over, I see you. There’s no shame in the spiral—only strength in the rise.

We rise. Not in spite of the fall. But because of it.